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How things have changed!

I am sure I have said this before but it used to be a real BEAR to get a cute picture of Emily. She would pose and hold still for anyone but me. Anyone, I tell you! That has changed so much in the past few months or so. She has become the biggest ham! She will bring me the camera so I will take her picture while she poses. At her aunt’s birthday, she was into posing with her hand in front of her face for some reason. Luckily, that hasn’t stuck so I don’t have 300 pictures of her hands. But I do have a ton of pictures with her head cocked to the side and smile on her face. She looks like a runway model. It cracks me up! I am loving all of the pictures! Here are just a few from the past few weeks!

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Christmas ho-ho holiday

I have to say…..3 is an AWESOME age for Christmas. I am sure I will say it about 4, 5, 6, etc but 3 was great. Even if we couldn’t get Emily to go see Santa. And believe me- we tried. Everything. It just wasn’t happening. I told her that she MUST take her brother to see him next year. She informed me that she will take Zachary but she isn’t sitting on the fat man’s lap.

I love 3 for several reasons. Emily was not greedy. Sure she said she wanted everything she saw for Christmas, but she didn’t expect it all. She was happy with whatever she got. No matter how small. Everything was new and exciting for her. She didn’t want to see Santa but she had to make sure that he left crumbs on the plate from his visit to her house. She made a special cookie for him at Grandma’s and was ecstatic that he ate it. Everything she opened was amazing! Even the tiniest thing got a huge squeal of approval. It really warmed my heart. She tore through her gifts in record time but everything got the same happy, joyous squeal. I LOVED it. I hope we got some of that on video. She was truly the happiest little girl Christmas morning.

She enjoyed looking at lights every time we went out this holiday. Each light display got their own ooh’s and ahh’s. I wanted to take her to one of the big displays around here but we just simply ran out of time. She wasn’t deprived though because she got to see one of the local displays with her Grandma, Grandpa and Aunt Nina.

She was so patient during morning mass and didn’t make too much noise. I am sure she had some people looking at mommy like she was crazy though! I was sitting up from as lector mimicking her head movements and sending her kisses. They probably thought the pregnant lady had lost it! She was also very patient during lunch at Grandma and Papa’s. She ate lunch like a lady before opening presents.

Christmas was bittersweet this year. It was our last year as a family of 3. I was a little sad about that in a way. But next year will be even better because God answered our prayers and we will be a family of 4! Even better!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday full of love and joy. You might not have gotten everything you asked for but I hope you got everything you need. Family, friends, faith and happiness. That’s what it’s all about.

PS- Picasa album has been updated with more Christmas photos.

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36 weeks- where’d they go?

Wow! Where has the time gone??? I cannot believe that I am 36 weeks along already! Seems just like yesterday that I learned I was pregnant. I know that sounds corny but that’s how it is.  Entering the home stretch now. Zachary could be here in the next few weeks. Makes me a little excited and scared to think about that at the same time actually.

We are pretty prepared really. We have a small list of things to do: install carseat base, pack a bag, among a few other things.  Am I mentally prepared? Not so much. I have an idea of what it will be like but won’t actually know until the time comes. How am I going to manage two?? Not so sure. But I know that it will work out. I might be a little crazy but we will get things under control, eventually.

I haven’t updated much about this pregnancy because there hasn’t really been much to tell really. Every pregnancy is different- that is for sure. Here are a few ways this pregnancy has been different from my first:

  • My Crohn’s has not been the silent partner as it was with Emily. I think there have only been a few weeks that I have not been plagued with it.
  • I haven’t had any of the same scares I had with Emily- early, heavy bleeding, early labor, early loss of plug.
  • I can still wear my rings. I had to ditch them several weeks before this point with Emily.
  • Crazy, crazy movements. Emily was a mover and a shaker but Zachary is a kung-fu master.

I am nervous about the dynamics of having a second child. I am nervous about Emily and how she will react. She’s excited now but will that change? How will I do with the adjustment of having to give someone else my attention? For so long, I believed that Emily was going to be an only child. I hope that we both transition well with the sharing of attention thing. I hope that Zachary doesn’t have “second child envy”. I don’t want him to think that he is any less important than his sister but the reality is that he will have to share his parent’s attention and won’t get the same things Emily did.

I know that millions of women have more than one child. I know that it works out in the end. I just need to learn how to deal with the mommy guilt and put it up on the shelf. Both of my children are going to be very, very loved. They will be so lucky to have a sibling to travel through life with. My hope is that they are close and support each other throughout their lives. One of my concerns in the past was how was Emily going to do being an only child. Now I don’t have to worry about it. She will have a friend, a playmate and a brother. For life.

I had my 36 week appointment on Monday. Fingertip dilated and anterior. Not making a lot of progress but that’s ok. We didn’t want Zachary to come until after the first of the year for several reasons anyway. I did have to have a non-stress test (nst) while I was there due to decreased fetal movement. He’s still moving around, just not as much or as crazy. I think it’s due to his lack of room but they wanted to make sure. Things are looking good. I had a few contractions while I was there but nothing major. He didn’t move a ton but he did what they were looking for when the agitated him by shoving on my belly. My next appointment is this coming Tuesday. We have an ultrasound and another nst schedule, along with the doctor appointment. Emily is so excited to come to the ultrasound. She can’t wait to “see baby brother on tv”.  Can’t wait to see the little kung-fu master again and see how big he is getting. Wonder if he will be early like his sister due to his size??

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