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36 weeks- where’d they go?

on December 30, 2009

Wow! Where has the time gone??? I cannot believe that I am 36 weeks along already! Seems just like yesterday that I learned I was pregnant. I know that sounds corny but that’s how it is.  Entering the home stretch now. Zachary could be here in the next few weeks. Makes me a little excited and scared to think about that at the same time actually.

We are pretty prepared really. We have a small list of things to do: install carseat base, pack a bag, among a few other things.  Am I mentally prepared? Not so much. I have an idea of what it will be like but won’t actually know until the time comes. How am I going to manage two?? Not so sure. But I know that it will work out. I might be a little crazy but we will get things under control, eventually.

I haven’t updated much about this pregnancy because there hasn’t really been much to tell really. Every pregnancy is different- that is for sure. Here are a few ways this pregnancy has been different from my first:

  • My Crohn’s has not been the silent partner as it was with Emily. I think there have only been a few weeks that I have not been plagued with it.
  • I haven’t had any of the same scares I had with Emily- early, heavy bleeding, early labor, early loss of plug.
  • I can still wear my rings. I had to ditch them several weeks before this point with Emily.
  • Crazy, crazy movements. Emily was a mover and a shaker but Zachary is a kung-fu master.

I am nervous about the dynamics of having a second child. I am nervous about Emily and how she will react. She’s excited now but will that change? How will I do with the adjustment of having to give someone else my attention? For so long, I believed that Emily was going to be an only child. I hope that we both transition well with the sharing of attention thing. I hope that Zachary doesn’t have “second child envy”. I don’t want him to think that he is any less important than his sister but the reality is that he will have to share his parent’s attention and won’t get the same things Emily did.

I know that millions of women have more than one child. I know that it works out in the end. I just need to learn how to deal with the mommy guilt and put it up on the shelf. Both of my children are going to be very, very loved. They will be so lucky to have a sibling to travel through life with. My hope is that they are close and support each other throughout their lives. One of my concerns in the past was how was Emily going to do being an only child. Now I don’t have to worry about it. She will have a friend, a playmate and a brother. For life.

I had my 36 week appointment on Monday. Fingertip dilated and anterior. Not making a lot of progress but that’s ok. We didn’t want Zachary to come until after the first of the year for several reasons anyway. I did have to have a non-stress test (nst) while I was there due to decreased fetal movement. He’s still moving around, just not as much or as crazy. I think it’s due to his lack of room but they wanted to make sure. Things are looking good. I had a few contractions while I was there but nothing major. He didn’t move a ton but he did what they were looking for when the agitated him by shoving on my belly. My next appointment is this coming Tuesday. We have an ultrasound and another nst schedule, along with the doctor appointment. Emily is so excited to come to the ultrasound. She can’t wait to “see baby brother on tv”.  Can’t wait to see the little kung-fu master again and see how big he is getting. Wonder if he will be early like his sister due to his size??

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One response to “36 weeks- where’d they go?

  1. kristina Weber says:

    Wow, I can’t believe you are 36 weeks already! It seems like you were just telling us the news! And I love your baby belly, you look great!

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