Love Overflowing

The clock is ticking….

on January 7, 2010

This pregnancy has been a whirlwind! I cannot believe that I am looking at the final days of feeling this little guy kicking around.  It’s bittersweet. I LOVE being pregnant. Feeling him kick and move around is the best feeling. A baby is growing inside of me! At the same time, I am tired, cranky and hurting. The Braxton hicks are never-ending, my back hurts and there is so much pressure. I try not to complain too much and focus on the positive. In less than a week, Stephen and I will finally get to meet this little man who has been causing me so much pain and joy. Emily will be a big sister. She can stop yelling “wake up baby brother” to my belly and yell at him in person. It is going to be an adventure and learning process for sure but I think I am ready. I better be because there is no turning back now.

I was not happy with my last doctor’s visit. The last few actually but it is what it is. We had an ultrasound and the little boy seems to be doing great. Growing well and ready to go. I didn’t actually get to see my doctor- which I am a bit upset about since I haven’t seen him in over a month. The nurse practitioner, who is normally very good, didn’t even check me out. I have no idea of where I am at progress-wise and that bugs me. I should have insisted but didn’t. So much for standing up for my own care.  The doctor did call me back that evening. If Zachary doesn’t come this weekend, he will be born next week.

There was part of me that kind of felt guilty for scheduling an induction. Maybe he isn’t ready, am I missing out on the experience of the last week and a half???? The other part says I am ready. I really want to try to avoid a c-section and going at 38 1/2 weeks will most likely ensure that. Emily was a big girl and if her head was any bigger I would have faced a c-section. I know a c-section isn’t the end of the world but I would rather not have one. And probably shouldn’t have one due to my Chron’s disease.

That said…We are scheduled to go into the hospital at 6am Tuesday morning. Since I have no idea of what kind of progress I have made I have no idea how long the process might take. Surely the Braxton hicks should have caused some progress. A little over a week ago, I was a finger-tip dilated and anterior so it couldn’t have gone backwards.

Just a few more days and I get to meet this little guy and show him how much he is loved already.

2 responses to “The clock is ticking….

  1. jalisa says:

    AHHHH!!! I cannot wait to meet/see him. Being your second, it is easier for your body has already gone through the process.

    Take care and enjoy only having one while you can!

  2. kristina says:

    Wow, I can’t believe the time is already here! I will be thinking of you on Tuesday and praying that all goes well!

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