Love Overflowing

One week, give or take…

This past Monday we took Zachary to the pediatrician for a check-up. We were anxious to see how he was growing. Surprisingly, all four of us made it to the pediatricians office with time to spare. Our appointment was at 8:20am. I think that is pretty impressive for a first outing.

When Zachary left the hospital, he had lost over 6% of his body weight. A little on the high side of normal. They didn’t tell us the exact weight at discharge but the night before, with a full bladder and a poopy belly, he weighed 7 lbs 4.3 oz. He had lost almost 10 ounces. We were hopeful that he had gained some weight back when we took him in 4 days later. We were hoping that the supplementing was making a difference. He was breastfeeding and taking about an ounce and a half of formula at every feeding.

His weight at the doctor’s office was 7 lbs 3 oz. Almost back to his pre-discharge weight. The pediatrician was not concerned at that point. We explained the situation with the breast milk and formula. She wanted us to try to increase his formula intake to 2-3 ounces every feeding and wake him every 2-3 hours to eat. She also said that she had never seen a baby that had not hint of yellow at all. That was a relief because Emily had to be on a bilibed when she came home.

We were hopeful that increasing the formula intake and frequency of feedings would help Zachary put on the weight that he needed. I ended up taking him to the pediatrician on Friday for an unrelated issue and he had gained 9 ounces from Monday to Wednesday! That’s some progress! He still isn’t up to his birth weight but he is well on his way! We still have to wake him every 2-3 hours to eat but it’s well worth it in order to put some meat on our little string bean. The doctor said that won’t last forever, soon we will be able to get more sleep at night but until he puts on some weight we have to continue. I am more than ok with that. Anything to help the little guy grow.

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Betrayed again…but with a better mindset.

My body doesn’t work the way it should. The fact that I had to go through IVF to conceive Emily proves that. Not only were we not able to conceive on our own but my body did not produce breast milk to feed my own child. It was a rude awakening with Emily. Never had I imagined that I wouldn’t be able to breastfeed her. It was a trying experience to say the least. The first two weeks of Emily’s life was both joyous and disappointing at the same time. I really wanted to be able to feed her. After many trips to the lactation consultant, we came to realize that she wasn’t getting any milk. With much sorrow, I succumbed and threw in the towel.

I went into the breastfeeding realm with Zachary with a whole different attitude. I was going to try to breastfeed but if it didn’t work, it didn’t work. It’s just food. Not love. Formula is not poison. Zachary latched on immediately and I could tell that he was getting colostrum. I had high hopes but realistic hopes. I would give it some time and see how it went. I was not opposed to supplementing my son. After issues with wet diapers, we decided to supplement on the last day in the hospital. I was continuing to breastfeed but wanted to make sure that he was getting what he needed in the meantime. Hoping that my milk would still come in.

I decided to be proactive. I got some Mother’s Milk Tea and Fenugreek. I was going to try to help the process along. Zachary continued to receive anything I was producing as well as some formula. And I was okay with that. A totally different story than the experience with Emily.

I am producing a little milk, not enough to sustain him, but some. The only reason is the Fenugreek. I am afraid that as soon as I stop taking it I will dry up. I continue to breastfeed before we give him a bottle. I know that he is getting the nutrition he needs as well as some added bonus from me. Every little bit of liquid gold is better than nothing. I know I won’t continue this forever but I want to do what I can for now.

Even though my body betrayed me yet again, I am in a better place. I know that Zachary is getting the nutrition that he needs and that is what counts. Everything else is just bonus.

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