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So not a runner…..

on June 14, 2011

Weight loss. Working out. Watching what you eat. It’s a never-ending battle. My friend and I were discussing this the other night. Why is it so hard to lose weight and be healthy? Because it’s easier to eat crap and sit on your butt. Watching television is much more fun than running on a treadmill, right? That cake sure looks good. And that ice cream? Give me two scoops please. I can eat like that. If I wanted to weigh 300 pounds. But I don’t. I want to be around for my children. I want to be able to play with them and not feel like I am gasping for breath. It’s a process. I have lost 20 pounds since Zachary was born. 17 months ago. I look at that and cringe. Only 20 pounds. But then I think. Wow! 20 pounds. I am in a smaller size and I am fitter and have more energy. I have about 20-30 pounds more that I want to lose. It is definitely a slow battle. Ups and downs. Stepping off the train. I want to be on that train. I want to hit that goal and feel great about myself. I know I can do it.

The main thing I need to change is my outlook of food. I need to learn that food is fuel. Food is not friendship, hugs or love. It’s not where I should turn when I am mad, sad or happy. I do love food so it’s hard. If it were easy, we’d all be skinny right? I know that my weight will be something that I struggle with for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hate food and worry about every little thing I put in my mouth. Right now, I NEED to count calories. Later down the line, after I have really gotten a handle on what I should be eating, I would like to move toward my friend, Amy’s, way of eating. Eat what you want, when you are hungry, until you are full. Amy writes a wonderful blog that I follow and it really helps me stay motivated. Check out her FitMommas blog.

I have started going to the gym again. I still have a little guilt about my kids being in there instead of having fun with me. My issue that I need to get over. They are having fun and they NEED the time away from me. That’s what I tell myself anyway as I am running on the treadmill. Running. Yes, I said it. I used to think that 4.2 was FAST. Oh my goodness, I was winded and out of breath. I could seriously only do 25 minutes on the treadmill before I would be exhausted or bored. I was eventually able to increase my stamina. The boredom I dealt with every time. I needed something to motivate me. Something to keep me on the treadmill. A couple of my friends were talking about the Couch to 5k program (C25K). After doing some research, I realized that was what I needed. I needed someone telling me to keep running. To keep going. To increase my stamina and endurance. The idea is to transform you from couch potato to runner, getting you running three miles (or 5K) on a regular basis in just two months.

I didn’t start on the couch though. I had been working out on a non-regular basis. I needed something to get me more regularly in the gym. I downloaded an app for my phone that did just that. I am currently in week 6. I can’t say that I LOVE running but I can say that I am actually starting to enjoy it more. The program only has me running for a total of 18 minutes right now. 25 minutes on the treadmill just isn’t enough for me so I have been continuing to run/walk after the program ends. To date, my longest run has been 4.62 miles in under an hour. I will be finished with the program in about 3 weeks. You know what? I am proud of myself. I have been running and going to the gym. While the scale doesn’t necessarily reflect my workouts, I have been going and keeping at it. Now I just need to get my eating under control and not let things go to hell on the weekends.

I don’t plan on running a marathon. I don’t plan on regularly running 5ks. As of right now, I want to do at least one. To show that I can do it. To prove to myself that I have taken an important step in my health. I need to work on stamina, weight training and flexibility still. One thing at a time. I am going to start looking into a race in the fall. I have several friends who have told me that they would run with me and support me during the one thing that I said I would never do: run for fun. I always said “I don’t run unless I am being chased.” Never say never.

Granted, I have only run on a treadmill at this point. I will give the great outdoors a try in the future. It’s just finding the time. And running with a jogging stroller doesn’t seem a lot of fun to me right now……

3 responses to “So not a runner…..

  1. Aw, schucks, dear! I appreciate the love!

    The only “problem” with my approach to eating is that it is probably harder than simply counting calories. It’s not quick fix, and if you DO use food as a friend, not simply as fuel, you have to really work at it. However, I stand by it. Put good foods in your body, treat food as fuel (you’re the 2nd person I’ve heard say this in the past 12 hours!).

    You’re doing great dear! Day in, Day out!

  2. Cassie Backowski says:

    Way to go, Karon!

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