Love Overflowing

4 years ago

Four years ago my life changed forever. My name became “mommy”. I never knew that my heart could hold so much love for someone who I had just met but have known their entire life. The moment Emily entered the world, I knew that she was someone special. She was my daughter. She filled this hole that was in my heart with her tiny cries and warm snuggles.
Four years ago. Seems like it was only yesterday that I was crying tears of joy and disbelief when the nurse called to tell that I was having a baby. A lot has changed in the past four years but one thing has remained constant. My love for that little girl has never wavered. And never will.

I have this little angel. For me she left her wings.
She has no idea how much happiness she truly brings.
She brightens up my days with her smiles and her laughs.
She helps me to remember all the blessings that I have.

Her face, it is so perfect, she’s sweet and soft and pure.
Sometimes she can be willful and sometimes she is demure.
She tries her very hardest to please and do what’s right.
She gives the greatest hugs from morning until night.

I know that God must love me, He showed me with His Grace
I knew just how completely when I saw my angel’s face.
And in that very moment when she came into my world,
I knew that she was so much more than just my baby girl.

She would be my sunshine, with a sweetness that won’t end.
And when she grows up one day she would be my closest friend.
She would be the reason I would always try my best.
For my little angel baby girl would be my greatest test.

When God entrusts to you an angel, who has left her wings for you.
Encircle her with love with everything you do.
Let her know God made her, and that He trusts you with her care.
Be sure to make time for special moments with her to share.

And when at night she finally says her prayers and goes to sleep
I Thank Him for my angel, and ask for him to always keep
A watchful eye and hand to protect her from this world.
Protect my little angel; protect my baby girl.

Tina M. Marascia


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A little boy and his sister

It’s love! There is no denying the fact that Emily loves Zachary more than I could have ever imagined! I didn’t really know how she would respond to having a little brother and not being the center of attention. For the most part, she has exceeded any expectation I might have had. She is a big helper and wants to be around him. She gets concerned when he cries and wants to know what is wrong. Emily wants to play with Zachary any time she gets a chance.

It is obvious that Zachary loves Emily very much. She is the one person who can ALWAYS get a smile out of him. He just hears her coming and he perks up. It is the sweetest sight and warms my heart to no end. I am so glad that God decided Emily needed a sibling. He really does know best!

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Arrival story

This is the story of Zachary’s birth….

After dinner Monday night, we dropped Emily off at Grandma and Papa’s house. It was hard to leave because I knew I would be away from her for a few days but Emily didn’t seem to mind. She was having a slumber party! She did great the entire time she spent with her grandparents.

I had a feeling that it was going to be a long night and I was right. The anticipation made it hard to sleep. The alarm buzzed way too early after drifting to sleep way too late. My stomach was full of butterflies. Soon, I was going to meet the newest man in my life. Stephen and I stopped at the donut shop for our “last breakfast” before heading. I had forgotten how dark it was at 5:30 am!

We arrived at the hospital at 6am sharp. Then came the tedious task of getting settled in and the show on the road. Finally the pitocin drip was started and around 8:30 or so the doctor came in to break my water. Things should finally start happening! Contractions were getting stronger but not as regular as we wanted. Zachary was not cooperating and wasn’t staying in the birth canal.

I received my epidural after I was dilated to around a 4. Definitely took the edge off. I should have know something wasn’t right when I started feeling pressure with every contraction. I waited too late to tell the nurse that something wasn’t right and started having pain. I think we saw almost every anesthesiologist on staff that morning. They adjusted the catheter, they upped the dosage, the added a boost…Finally, after laboring without meds for about 2 hours and throwing up in the process, they decided to remove the original epidural and put in a fresh one. By that point, my legs were totally numb. I couldn’t feel them nor move them. At all.

In the meantime, I had dilated to a 6. While sitting up and receiving an epidural for the second time I became complete and Zachary dropped to a station 2+. He was ready to come out! Luckily, the nurse was on top of her game and had called the dr already. Once I was in position, I really only had to push once and Zachary entered the world. It was an amazing feeling- knowing that I had brought this perfect little man into the world. He wasn’t crying like most newborns when he came out and I was very concerned. I remember asking repeatedly if he was ok. He was great. He just wasn’t crying. There were no problems whatsoever with him. What a relief!

It took us quite awhile to be moved to the postpartum side. Partially because there was another delivery at the same time and the fact that it took quite awhile for me to regain the feeling in my legs. Zachary got to spend the entire time in the room with us. That was really an excellent experience, as Emily was wisked off to the nursery shortly after being born. It was wonderful to get to experience everything with him. His first bath, his first nursing session…everything.

Despite having the epidural not work the first time I would not have changed a thing. The important part was that Zachary was born healthy and perfect. He latched on right away when I first tried nursing. He was such a content little baby after birth- only crying when he had his diaper changed.

Emily was immediately in love! She was waiting out in the waiting room and was the first person back to see him. She walked up to us and said “Hi baby brother. Ah boo boo boo!” It truly brought tears to my eyes. She told him how much she loved him and asked to hold him. She has been such a great big sister!

My family is now complete. God is amazing. I thought my life was complete and He decided that we needed a son. I am glad He did.

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Big changes

There are some big changes going on in the J household! We are expecting our SECOND child!!!!!!!!!

I know to many it doesn’t seem like a super huge deal but it is to us. We always truly believed that Emily was going to be an only child. We had heard stories and known people who have gotten pregnant naturally after IVF (we like to call them “freebies”) but never in a million years imagined that it would happen to us. Especially considering our circumstances behind our IVF.

Imagine our surprise when the pregnancy test showed 2 lines!!! It was a fluke that I had taken it anyway. I was participating in the Biggest Loser Challenge, eating well, dropping weight and being active. Stephen made me test based on a morning I told him that I felt sick and I had only eaten plain toast for breakfast. It’s a good thing he was adamant about that! I was 6+ weeks along at that point! I would have NEVER known I was pregnant honestly. Probably still wouldn’t to this day. Missing a period is not uncommon for me so that wouldn’t have been a tip off.

I am now 13 weeks today. Dealing with some bleeding issues and a low lying placenta but feeling great overall. I have seen my little one more times than most people have by this point and will get another picture in 3 more weeks. Hearing the heartbeat for the first time earlier this week was AMAZING and very reassuring. Our official due date is January 22, 2010.

God is truly amazing. He must have planned for Emily to grow up with a sibling. Despite what we might have believed, He had other plans. I am so thankful to be blessed not once, but twice. I don’t know what I have done to deserve these blessings but I am truly thankful. I hope to be the best mommy I can be to these two little souls that God has entrusted into my care.

So, I guess this will be the first entry in a long line of “pregnancy” posts!

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