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So not a runner…..

Weight loss. Working out. Watching what you eat. It’s a never-ending battle. My friend and I were discussing this the other night. Why is it so hard to lose weight and be healthy? Because it’s easier to eat crap and sit on your butt. Watching television is much more fun than running on a treadmill, right? That cake sure looks good. And that ice cream? Give me two scoops please. I can eat like that. If I wanted to weigh 300 pounds. But I don’t. I want to be around for my children. I want to be able to play with them and not feel like I am gasping for breath. It’s a process. I have lost 20 pounds since Zachary was born. 17 months ago. I look at that and cringe. Only 20 pounds. But then I think. Wow! 20 pounds. I am in a smaller size and I am fitter and have more energy. I have about 20-30 pounds more that I want to lose. It is definitely a slow battle. Ups and downs. Stepping off the train. I want to be on that train. I want to hit that goal and feel great about myself. I know I can do it.

The main thing I need to change is my outlook of food. I need to learn that food is fuel. Food is not friendship, hugs or love. It’s not where I should turn when I am mad, sad or happy. I do love food so it’s hard. If it were easy, we’d all be skinny right? I know that my weight will be something that I struggle with for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hate food and worry about every little thing I put in my mouth. Right now, I NEED to count calories. Later down the line, after I have really gotten a handle on what I should be eating, I would like to move toward my friend, Amy’s, way of eating. Eat what you want, when you are hungry, until you are full. Amy writes a wonderful blog that I follow and it really helps me stay motivated. Check out her FitMommas blog.

I have started going to the gym again. I still have a little guilt about my kids being in there instead of having fun with me. My issue that I need to get over. They are having fun and they NEED the time away from me. That’s what I tell myself anyway as I am running on the treadmill. Running. Yes, I said it. I used to think that 4.2 was FAST. Oh my goodness, I was winded and out of breath. I could seriously only do 25 minutes on the treadmill before I would be exhausted or bored. I was eventually able to increase my stamina. The boredom I dealt with every time. I needed something to motivate me. Something to keep me on the treadmill. A couple of my friends were talking about the Couch to 5k program (C25K). After doing some research, I realized that was what I needed. I needed someone telling me to keep running. To keep going. To increase my stamina and endurance. The idea is to transform you from couch potato to runner, getting you running three miles (or 5K) on a regular basis in just two months.

I didn’t start on the couch though. I had been working out on a non-regular basis. I needed something to get me more regularly in the gym. I downloaded an app for my phone that did just that. I am currently in week 6. I can’t say that I LOVE running but I can say that I am actually starting to enjoy it more. The program only has me running for a total of 18 minutes right now. 25 minutes on the treadmill just isn’t enough for me so I have been continuing to run/walk after the program ends. To date, my longest run has been 4.62 miles in under an hour. I will be finished with the program in about 3 weeks. You know what? I am proud of myself. I have been running and going to the gym. While the scale doesn’t necessarily reflect my workouts, I have been going and keeping at it. Now I just need to get my eating under control and not let things go to hell on the weekends.

I don’t plan on running a marathon. I don’t plan on regularly running 5ks. As of right now, I want to do at least one. To show that I can do it. To prove to myself that I have taken an important step in my health. I need to work on stamina, weight training and flexibility still. One thing at a time. I am going to start looking into a race in the fall. I have several friends who have told me that they would run with me and support me during the one thing that I said I would never do: run for fun. I always said “I don’t run unless I am being chased.” Never say never.

Granted, I have only run on a treadmill at this point. I will give the great outdoors a try in the future. It’s just finding the time. And running with a jogging stroller doesn’t seem a lot of fun to me right now……


Biggest Loser Update- Results Week #2

We just had weigh in number 2. I am happy to say that I have seen a loss both weeks. Not as big of a loss as I would have liked this week. I wasn’t very good over the weekend and let a lot of stuff slide. I didn’t gain anything from the weekend’s transgressions but I didn’t lose any more either.

I did make it to the gym for the first time since breaking my foot. I was wondering how Zachary would do since he has never really been with strangers, except the sitter once. He did great. Granted, my workout was only about 35 minutes but still. (I was watching the clock for nap time and the radar for storms.) It’s hard to get to the gym when he naps all the time! I will just have to kick it in gear and work out at home. Thank goodness for weights and the Wii.

As of right now, I am in a very, very close second place. I have lost 5.3 pounds since the start of the challenge. Not a huge amount but nothing to scoff at either. Now if I could get the exercise thing in place as well. The eating has been much better but is always a work in progress.

Show me the money!!!!

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Biggest Loser Challenge- 2010

Same weight, different year. The Biggest Loser Challenge that I was involved in last year was the best thing for me. It gave me the motivation and the confidence to lose weight. I learned about portion control and eating more healthy. I learned to believe that I had the power to change the way I ate and the way I looked.

I don’t regret getting pregnant in the least bit. I am mad that I didn’t follow through on my vow to eat healthy, not eat junk and continue to work out during my entire pregnancy. That went out the window when I was told I had to restrict my activity due to complications early on. When the restrictions were lifted, I did not return back to the gym. I just ate what I pleased and figured I would deal with the consequences later. Bad, bad, bad.

So, in a nutshell, I am back to the point I was last year when starting the challenge. Trying to look at the positive, at least I started my pregnancy 20 pounds lighter so the weight I did gain just brought me back to where I was in the first place. This brings me to this year’s Biggest Loser’s Challenge. A group of girlfriends and I have decided that the time is NOW to lose weight and we need a little kick in the tush to get moving. A friendly competition  it is then!

The challenge began on July 6 and ends on August 31. I am hoping that I can lose between 15-20 pounds. I know that sounds like a lot, especially considering the challenge with exercise. It’s a lot harder to work out with 2 than with 1!!! Zachary hasn’t been to the gym yet as I am nervous about taking him. And it’s hard to work out during his morning nap because Emily gets bored and I start to feel guilty about not giving her one-on-one time. That leaves the afternoon when and if they both nap. Time that would normally be spent cleaning and trying to get some relaxation in. We’ll see how it goes. I would like to try out the gym again. It’s just tricky trying to fit it in between nap time and eating with Zachary. The kid just sleeps so much!

Also during the challenge, Stephen and I will be celebrating our anniversary. We are staying overnight in Herman. Yummy food and wineries…..Yikes! Plus, the week before the final weigh in is vacation. Double yikes!!!! It will definitely take some discipline so we’ll see how I manage. If I don’t win, I will still be a winner because I WILL lose weight and I will be making healthy habits a priority and hopefully turning them into a habit.

I think with the support of my friends, husband and trusty iPhone application to count my calories some serious damage can be achieved. Damage in a good way.

Wish me luck!!!!


Biggest Loser Finale

Monday was the final weigh in for the Biggest Loser Challenge that I participated in. The goal was to see who could lose the most percentage of your body weight within 8 weeks.

I am not going to lie and say it was easy. It was hard. Especially because we had holidays, birthdays and special occasions occurring throughout the entire 8 weeks. It was a huge change in the way that I ate and how I looked at food. I still struggle with too many sweets and wanting desserts. It’s always going to be a struggle and that’s ok. I didn’t get to the root of my eating problems but I learned how to control my urges and binges better. I got my butt moving and worked out a lot throughout the entire 8 weeks.

The thing that I found to work for me was a notebook. My fatty patty notebook. I wrote down EVERYTHING I ate, along with the calorie count. I limited myself to an average of 1200 calories per day. I anticipated special meals and adjusted accordingly. Going to 1200 calories was hard. After the first week or two, it got easier. I was finding myself only at 1000 calories after dinner. I indulged in ice cream and other healthy desserts to make up the deficit. I made healthier choices and I know those choices are going to carry on long after the contest ended.

I was lucky because Stephen was working with me, not against me. Too many women have husbands who aren’t super supportive of their weight-loss efforts. Fortunately, I am not one of them. Stephen jumped on the weight loss train with me and lost quite a bit of his own weight as well. I am very proud of him!

I truly didn’t think I could win the competition. Some things came up in my life that prevented me from being able to work out at the gym as much and kept me from limiting my calories to 1200. With 3 weeks left of the competition, I found myself doing what I could do. If I won, I won. If I didn’t, I still won because I had lost weight and made major changes in my life. Guess what???

I WON!!!!!!!!!!! I lost 10.44% of my body weight in 8 weeks! I am so proud of all the women who participated in this challenge with me. We lost over 80 pounds as a group and there were only 8 of us! That’s huge!!!! A huge step toward improving our lifestyle and overall health. Not only looking better, but feeling better as well.

Our next competition sounds like a fun one. Walk Across America. Sign me up!


Taken on the day of the weigh-in. 10.44% smaller!


BLC update

It’s that time again……Time for a Biggest Loser update.

We just finished up week #6 and I walked away with another 2 pound loss. Not too shabby. So, contest official, I have lost 6.75% of my body weight. Not too shabby if I do say so myself.

In the contest standings, I am in second place. A very, very close second place. There are two more weigh-ins before the final weigh in on June 22. I must admit that I am not confident about pulling out a win. I am not giving up by any means though. I am just going to keep doing what I am doing to the best of my ability. Even if I don’t win, I am still a winner because my pants fit better and I feel better. And that’s the best prize of all!!!!

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Lazy and enjoyable

It was one of those weekends where you had nothing you “had” to do other than church. Nowhere to be, no schedules- just nice and lazy. Unfortunately, Emily’s alarm clock rarely allows for too lazy of a schedule. 6:15 Saturday morning Emily was ready to rock the house. And that was after she got to bed later than normal Friday night due to the storms. The kid is a rooster! After getting ready for our day we decided what to do. Emily wanted to “buy Lucy clothes”. We had a gift card and bear rewards for Build-a-Bear that were burning a hole in our pockets. So we headed to the mall. We bought Lucy a new outfit, big girl panties (in honor of Emily’s transition), a hoochie mama bikini and the most important thing in Emily’s mind- new shoes!!! Poor bear has to wear shoes to bed now! We walked and we walked. And we didn’t take the stroller. And we walked. Emily did pretty well without the stroller actually. There was only about one time when I thought about swinging her over my shoulder and carrying her cave woman style!

Sunday, after church, we headed over to a local parish’s church picnic. I don’t care what church is it but their fried chicken dinners are just the bomb! The tricky part was to stick to the diet while enjoying the yummy food. The old Stephen and I would have said “Forget it. We are just going to write the day off and enjoy.” We would eat a plate full of chicken, mashed potatoes with the fixings and still eat dessert. We’d walk out of there fat, dumb and happy. But, like I said, that would have been the old us.

The new us walked to that church picnic. We ate the dinner but I only had one piece of chicken and one portion of the green beans and mashed potatoes. Stephen did just as well. I ate a dessert but it was a small piece of angel food cake. We didn’t polish off the food on Emily’s plate and we didn’t walk out of there with out bellies so full we couldn’t walk. We had energy to take Emily around to the rides and games. It is a huge change for us! It’s not an overnight change though. It’s something that we are going to continue working on for the rest of our lives if we want to be healthy but you have to start somewhere and we proved we could do it today.

After lunch, Emily got to ride the big giant spinning monkey and play some games. She’s 2 so she didn’t realize that she didn’t get to do everything and play everything. She didn’t win a game but she was happy with the ball they gave out as a consolation prize. Oh, to be 2 again! It was a great outing! We all had fun, despite the fact that Stephen had to carry Emily halfway to the car, crying, because she wasn’t done.

In the giant monkey!

In the giant monkey!

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Biggest Loser Update…

It’s been hard but I have really been trying to watch what I eat. I decided that if I was truly wanting to do this I needed to write everything down and count all calories. So I have my little “Fatty Patty” notebook and I track EVERYTHING.  On days I go a little over my allotted calories I eat lighter the next day. It helps me to plan ahead too. Say I know I am going out the next day, I will lighten up the preceding day. Before we go out to eat, I try to find nutritional information and pick out what I am going to eat. It’s hard but it’s totally worth it.

Last week I was down another 2 pounds!!! I am pretty stoked about it! Want to hear something else that I am stoked about??? Julie sent out the percentages lost so far. I am at 3.2%. Which is….get this…..FIRST place!!!! It’s pretty close though with #2 at 3.1% but first place after 3 weeks! That’s HUGE for me!

Now I just have to keep on keeping on. Continue what I am doing and not lose sight of the goal. Continue eating right and exercising. Calories in, calories out. No cheating, no excuses!


BLC Update…

Look at that, 3 posts in one day! There’s only one thing that can explain it: boredom. I am sitting at the car dealer, waiting. Thank goodness I had the foresight to bring my laptop to kill some time and was able to get on a network!

So last week was the first week of the Biggest Loser Challenge (BLC) that I am in. I think it went really well! I am counting calories and working out. I think I am actually not eating enough to tell you the truth considering how much I have been working out. I need to find the correct balance. I don’t want to eat too few calories and make my body think that it’s starving and think that it should hold onto the massive fat cells I have.

I must be doing something right though because I did see a loss! The official documented loss was 2.5 pounds. It was hard to get a good weight because the first weigh-in was at night. I wanted to try to keep up with that so there wasn’t a gain the last week. My scale showed a 3.5 pound loss but I wanted to officially show low so there you have it!

Week one was a success. Now if the rest of the weeks will show losses as well! I figure if I can get past the first 3 or 4 weeks I will be doing good. It is a lifestyle change and I can honestly say that it’s been a little easier than I expected but I haven’t put myself to full tests though. Cakes, cookies, holidays, etc. I know I won’t cut out all of the stuff I love but eat it in moderation and on occasion.

Seeing the scale go down is exhilarating! I know not every day will be a loss and that’s ok. Even if I don’t win the competition, I am still a winner because I will have lost weight and gained some self-confidence.

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Do you hear that?

That’s the sound of my tummy growling! I used to have a snack after Emily went to bed. It was part of our routine. A very unhealthy routine. As of yesterday, that has changed. A lot of stuff is hopefully changing. Eating habits, how I view food, the size of my rump. All good changes.

This is all due to a challenge I entered.  My friend Julie emailed me about joining her “The Biggest Loser” challenge. I was kind of hesitant about it. Was I ready to really make a change and stop whining about my weight?? Was I ready to watch what I eat and not make excuses? On my own, no. I was content with eating crap and loving it. This challenge might be my golden ticket. I was still on the fence. I emailed my friend Cindy about the contest and she was ecstatic. Her enthusiasm was bubbling over and contagious. She made me not dismiss the challenge off the bad. Made me really think about what I wanted. The power of peer pressure! So I am in!

I know I have talked about doing a challenge before and nothing came of it. Sure there was some friendly competition. It died out as early as my resolve to put the ice cream down did. This challenge is different. This one is for money! Lots of money! $200 actually and that can buy a lot of stuff!

Plus I am in a different place now. I am ready. I am ready to lose the weight, get healthy and look good. Sounds like a broken record doesn’t it? It does to me. Anyone who has ever dealt with being overweight can understand though. It’s a vicious cycle. You want to lose weight, you attempt to lose weight and you fall off the wagon. You eat like crap for awhile and decide that you are tired of your pants cutting you in two. Rinse and repeat. I really want to make a change. I think this challenge will help. A group of women helping each other reach their goals. Whether it’s losing 10 pounds or 100 pounds. We are all in the same boat- the fat boat.

I know, for me, that I need to make some changes and look inside to find out why I struggle the way I do. What causes me to eat when I am not hungry? What causes me to load my plate up and eat every bite? I don’t know. At this point, I am not sure how to find the answers. I know I need to look deep inside myself and find out if  I am ever going to make a long lasting change.

I do know a few things though. I don’t want to look like a whale when we go on vacation this summer. I don’t want Emily to be ashamed of me when she is older. I really don’t want to always tell her that I can’t pick her up because she is too heavy and I am a weakling. I want to be around to watch her grow up and live a long life with Stephen. I owe that to the both of them. That is more important than a ding dong any day.

It starts here and now. Yesterday actually. I am in for all the marbles. I need to watch what I eat and exercise. No excuses. This challenge runs 8 weeks. I want to come out the biggest loser and prove to myself that I can do it. If I can do it for 8 weeks, chances are it will be easier to continue after the challenge is over. And I want to make a lifelong change not just a short term one where I end up gaining it all back and more.

Let’s do it!

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Update: OSC

A couple of people have asked me how Operation: Skinny Chicks is going so I thought I would update!

OSC started on December 1. Since my first weigh-in, I have lost 4 pounds. I know that isn’t lighting the world on fire but I think considering it is December, with all the food that goes with it, 4 pounds is decent. I managed to not gain during the holidays and that’s the key.

I am ashamed to say though that I haven’t been to the gym in over 2 weeks. I was sick one week, last week Stephen was off and we had so much to do and I haven’t made it in this week. I am going to get my schedule of workouts back in sync and really eating better.

So, as you can see, OSC is plugging along, albeit with a slow start. But it’s moving right along!